Avoiding the void.
Stop Running! Turn towards the void, move closer and merge with the void.
I vow to set aside the time.
Every day, I feed myself to that supreme cosmic serpent. Before a sacred altar, I lower my body into a pit of snakes with not one tightened fiber of muscle.
Every day, I allow myself to be consumed by the Tiger. Torn limb from limb. Beating heart eaten from chest.
Whatever prevents me from breathing life into that area where awful fear and anxiety lurk; I grow in curiosity about it.
Whatever the thing is that I avoid the most: A physical sensation, a particular mental stimulation, thoughts I don’t like, thoughts about death, disease, etc., Emotional unrest: loneliness, heartbreak, existential turmoil and frustration etc. I want to stretch into and feel everything, touch every tension that aches for the healing love of attention.
Go directly to the center of those dark places As Love.
Open and soften to my worst fears, I let the breath of life touch them, bringing nourishment to the suffocated.
Offer myself to the source of life, as it’s present and alive here right now.
As much as I can, and to the best of my ability, I turn towards the Infinite Source of life.
A sometimes seemingly counter-intuitive turn and much of our culture and society is designed to avoid the void, or at best dance around it. So by default, I have to be kind of a weirdo to do this, I’m going against the grain in a way. But there’s a much stronger current underlying the surface of social anxieties about what the right or wrong thing to pay attention to is. It’s the more natural, courageous and enlightening turn, It’s the opposite of doing, acting, creating, it’s the ceasing of all manipulation, don’t even exert effort to breath, let the autonomic nervous system take my breath. I take off every piece of armor and lay down every weapon and allow myself to undergo a surgery at the hands of demons and angels, both divine and working in harmony.
This is the trick, how many people are taking this step? How many are trying to avoid the void?
Are my spiritual practices just distractions from falling into the void at the center of my being?
Can we discuss the subtleties of the turn towards the Void? Here’s how I do it: From the center of my being and with all my might, 1) stop 2) surrender 3) soften 4) open 5) allow 6) listen 7) act 8) repeat. Recognizing and relaxing the impulse to avoid the void is the way into the river of the Tao, where I feel the interconnectedness of life and all is balanced.
The Void isn’t bad, all my gold is there.